All I can say is WOW!

The Lord told me what to write yesterday - then I read the next chapter in Wild at Heart and all I can say is wow. The way He continues to teach me is absolutely amazing. I understand more now than ever that I am in a war. To tell on myself a little, I have really been struggling getting up in the morning to run as well as struggling in my prayer life and in my "quiet time". I have been battling feeling tired all the time, and have even been feeling more lazy than I probably ever have. Now with what the Lord is teaching me, I really believe this is an attack. This morning on the way into work, I prayed in the name of Jesus Christ and I asked for Him to take away this feeling and to help me get up and get moving in the mornings.

This past year since I had a foot injury, my running has not been what it used to be. I was unable to run for about 2 months and I lost all of the training and running endurance I had built up. Since then (and I have never really voiced this), I have really been battling fatigue/laziness/discipline in all areas of my life. Let me rephrase, it has been battling me, but I have been kind of sitting back and taking it. Well as of this morning, not anymore! I have confessed it and I am battling back. I am battling back on the time I spend with the Lord as well. I love what John Eldridge said in Wild at Heart:

"But if you saw your life as a great battle and you knew you needed time with God for your very survival, you would do it. Maybe not perfectly - nobody ever does and that's not the point anyway - but you would have a reason to seek Him. We give a half-hearted attempt at the spiritual disciplines when the only reason we have is that we "ought" to. But we'll find a way to make it work when we are convinced we're history if we don't. Time with God each day is not about academic study or getting through a certain amount of Scripture or any of that. It's about connecting with God. We've got to keep those lines of communication open, so use whatever helps. Sometimes I'll listen to music; other times I'll read Scripture or a passage from a book; often I will journal; maybe I'll go for a run; then there are days when all I need is silence and solitude and the rising sun. The point us simply to do whatever brings me back to my heart and the heart of God."

Wow! How awesome is that. The struggles with discipline are a direct attack on my heart and now I am fighting back like I described yesterday (dying to self, putting on the armor, taking up my cross, etc). I hope this all helps someone else, but to be honest I know the Lord is speaking directly to me!